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Friday, August 25th, 2006

Time:2:47 pm.
Mood: content.
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I don't plan on posting here anymore...if you have a myspace page, you can find me at www.myspace.com/nadysia if you'd like to keep in touch.
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Sunday, June 11th, 2006

Time:8:19 pm.
Mood: tuckered.
I have been spending more time over at myspace lately than here...if anyone here has an account there and would like to add me here's my page:

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Monday, May 29th, 2006

Time:7:12 pm.
Mood: disappointed.
Sometimes I am surprised at how much unvented anger I have.

Sometimes I wonder if moving to Atlanta was the right decision.  I know that I didn't really have a life in Macon and all I did was work, but at least there I was working so much that I didn't have as much downtime to reflect on not having a life.  And I did know a few people that I would go out with on occassion.  I can't say the same for being here.  It hasn't quite been the wonderful transition and starting over that i had hoped it would be.  But I'm still trying...
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Thursday, May 25th, 2006

Time:3:15 pm.
Mood: cranky.
Ugh.  I have been trying to explore myspace a bit more today (since I feel like crap and I don't feel like working) and apparently they are having issues.  Stupid server.  I'm not sure about myspace.
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Sunday, May 21st, 2006

Time:9:56 am.
Mood: depressed.
John is gone and I need to find something to do with my day.  I'm feeling down, dunno why.  I hate feeling like this.  And I hate Sundays.
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Friday, May 19th, 2006

Subject:I'm broken
Time:8:01 am.
Mood: ouchie.
I majorly twisted my ankle last night and now I'm a hobbling-hobbit.  Yikes.
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Thursday, May 18th, 2006

Time:3:19 pm.
Mood: pessimistic.
I admit, I do enjoy being alone and as I mentioned yesterday, I have been enjoying spending quality time with myself lately.  But...I miss being with someone who is so consumed by me and our connection that we talk every day, for hours on end.  I miss having that connection with someone.  I miss knowing that there was someone out there who is that interested in me, my thoughts, opinions, beliefs, and feelings.  I miss wanting to know everything about someone and finding each day a new adventure (cliche, I know) because I can't wait to spend more time with that person.

I guess it's just nice to feel valued.

But I know it's partly my fault, too.  It's just so hard to make an effort sometimes, especially the older and more jaded I get about the general state of humanity.  What a dilemma!
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Wednesday, May 17th, 2006

Time:4:20 pm.
Mood: productive.
I know I've been absent of late and not posting anything worth reading. Hell, I've been boring myself here! Just random quotes and pictures and silly things. For some reason I haven't been feeling very open about...well, anything lately. I've been keeping to myself and spending some quality time with ME. And I've been enjoying it, oddly enough.

Work has been going well. There are a few people here I can do without, but unfortunately my vision of a perfect world was not used during creation, so I just have to deal. :) It's really ok, I know that the type of employee I am compared to the type of employee they are will always win out, so I'm just biding my time. It'll all work out in the end.

Last weekend, as mentioned below, I got a haircut, yay! It's not as short as I had imagined but I like it. I got some layers in it, so I'm going to have to keep it trimmed up to keep it looking halfway decent, so maybe I'll go a little shorter next time. I also went to dinner with a friend (good times), and saw the family (more good times). As I've grown older, I actually enjoy spending time with my family again, even though we can't all be together. But we've been dealing with that, too, and it's getting easier, although of course we all wish things were different. I took my mom out for dinner on Sunday and had a good time with her. She's funny. :)

Anyway, that was my weekend. My grandmother was released from the hospital last week, my aunt (albeit I disowned her) had her baby, my stepmother was released from the hospital a couple of weeks ago (reminder: call dad) (oh, another reminder: call Cally) (nevermind on calling dad, just emailed him). I really don't like talking on the phone that much. I guess I have gotten wary about my phone ringing because I am always worried that someone is calling me with bad news. But I really really hate when people say they are going to call me and they don't! If we're on the phone and you get another call, don't say "I'll call you back," if you don't plan on calling back, just say "I have to go." That annoys the shit out of me!!  Don't tell me you are going to call me later and then you never do. That's just inconsiderate and I don't appreciate it. boohiss

Continuing with my pet peeve theme, I really can't stand it when people can't spell and don't take the time to proofread. I know we all make typos sometimes - yes, even me. But if you know you can't spell, please be considerate and use spellcheck and look over your work. I shouldn't have to interpret what you are trying to say because you can't type or spell. I used to think that not being able to spell was a sign of lack of intelligence (I know, how judgmental), then I met a few people who are smart but can't spell, so I can get that.  But if you're typing something and you don't look it over before you click send, that's just inconsiderate!! So maybe it's not a sign of a lack of intelligence, just a lack of consideration.

Anyway, enough about those things that irk me. School is going well; all 90s, 95s or 100s so far on homework and exams. I should get an A in this class, but I made a B last quarter :( in Accounting 102 so I don't have a 4.0 anymore. Dammit. But there are only three weeks left to go in this class. Next quarter I might take 2 online classes if I can afford it. We'll see.

The class I'm taking this quarter is Introduction to Humanities. Right now we are studying the beginning of the Christian movement and I've been finding some quotes by philosophers, etc. that have made me think about my own beliefs about religion. I was brought up in a Southern Baptist church (yes, one of THOSE) until I was 12 or so, when I refused to go anymore because I was so disillusioned by all of the hypocrisy. I see myself as a very rational, logical person - I know others might not see it, but I can't help it if MY logic is different from YOUR logic (oh, that reminds me of another pet peeve: when people use the wrong YOUR/YOU'RE; TOO/TO/TWO, "U" for YOU and "R" for ARE and especially UR for YOUR or YOU'RE, etc., but I digress).  What was my point?  Oh yes - because I spent so many of my early years in the church, a lot of their beliefs were ingrained into my head (I can see I'm going to have a difficult time explaining this).  For instance, the church taught that homosexuality was wrong and sex before marriage was wrong.  Well, obviously I don't believe those teachings, but because they were pounded into my brain for so long at such an impressionable age, I feel dirty for being bisexual and sometimes I feel dirty after having sex, even though, in my head, I know I don't believe what the church taught.  It's very odd to be at conflict with yourself like that.  And this is one of the reasons why, if I ever have children (which I am beginning to believe is not going to happen), I am not going to make them to go to church until they are old enough to decide for themselves what they believe and what feels right to them.  And I don't really think of myself as an aetheist now, but I don't believe in organized religion as we know it today and I haven't yet figured out what feels right for me.  I think I'm Agnostic.  I'm a confused child sometimes.

This weekend I get to see Wicked! I'm so excited! This will be a fulfillment of one of the reasons I moved to Atlanta - to be able to go to shows, knowing who's in town and taking advantage of some CULTURE that was so painfully absent in middle Georgia.

And btw, I am my own blue dot! :D
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Sunday, May 14th, 2006

Time:10:25 pm.
Mood: curious.
cut and straightened my hair, but I don't really like these picsCollapse )
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Time:7:36 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
According to the text of my Introduction to Humanities class, these are the cardinal points of the teachings of Jesus:

One God (a Personal Spirit, not an abstract idea nor a principle) is not only the Creator but also the loving Father of all humankind; that all people are consequently the children of God, and that as a result all men and women are brothers and sisters; that as children of God, human beings are capable of better lives than they lead; that their human inadequacies, imperfections, and shortcomings can be forgiven if they are repentant; that life is eternal, and death is not extinction; that “all the Law and the Prophets” hangs upon the joint commandment to “Love thy God, and thy neighbor as thyself;” and that the intention—the act of the personality—is of greater importance than the deed—the act of the person.

I made a 90 on my test for this chapter though. Ugh.
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Friday, May 12th, 2006

Time:10:39 am.
Mood: contemplative.
Robert Frost

We make ourselves a place apart
Behind light words that tease and flout
But oh, the agitated heart
Till someone really find us out.

'Tis pity if the case require
(Or so we say) That in the end
We speak the literal to inspire
The understanding of a friend.

But so withall, from babes that play
At hide-and-seek to God afar
So all who hide to well away
Must speak and tell us where they are.
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Thursday, May 11th, 2006

Time:4:03 pm.
Mood: surprised.
I am bored and pissed with work (it's a temporary thing), hence thisCollapse )
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Subject:for plaid_hatter
Time:8:38 am.
Mood: tuckered.
This is the satellite picture of the Nile I was telling you and Mr. Hatter about Saturday.Collapse )
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Sunday, May 7th, 2006

Time:2:39 pm.
Mood: pensive.
"On Earth we are prisoners in an earthly body.
God is the Father of all men and we are all brothers.
Slaves are equal of other men because all are alike in the eyes of God.
We must submit to God as a good citizen submits to the law.
The soldier swears to respect no man above Caeser but we are to respect ourselves first of all.
We must love our enemies."
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Friday, May 5th, 2006

Time:6:03 pm.
Mood: optimistic.
I have a new boyfriend. :)

Ok, so maybe he's only 3 years old, and I'm not a pedophile, so I guess he's not really my boyfriend...but anyway! My friend Rhonda at work brought her son in for the day today and he was so much fun and too cute. He really took to me instead of being shy and not interacting with anyone in the office. When it was time to go home he was crying because I couldn't go home with them...it was too cute.

There's nothing like the innocence of a child to make you realize that things aren't quite as bad as they seem. Being around him all day really brought me out of my funk. Maybe now it'll stay away for a while...we'll see.
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Thursday, May 4th, 2006

Subject:tagged by devon50180 and de_danaan
Time:11:05 pm.
Mood: calm.
Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 6 weird facts/things/habits about yourself, saying who tagged you. In the end you need to choose the 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs.

1. I cuss like a sailor. This might not seem that weird, unless you have heard my voice. I have a very sweet, childish voice, and most people are shocked the first time they hear me drop the f-bomb. lol

2. When I was younger, I used to think that everything I ever hoped would happen would never happen. So I used to wish for the opposite of what I wanted to happen and visualize that happening instead of what I really wanted. I don't know how effective this was.

3. Along the same line, I have a horrible sense of direction. When I finally admitted this to myself, I realized that whatever direction I feel I should be going in is always wrong and I go the other way.

4. I can pinch with my toes. Sometimes I pick things up off the floor with my toes. Apparently this is weird because it used to freak out exJohn.

5. I am addicted to gameshows and sitcoms (shh, don't tell anyone - I'm so ashamed!).

6. This one is really strange - when I was in junior high I was convinced I was Queen (or King, depending on how you asked) Hatshepsut reincarnated. lol, obsessed much, you think?

The only person left on my list who hasn't done this yet who updates semi-regularly is plaid_hatter, so hop to it, missy!
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Time:4:06 pm.
Mood: amused.
sex quizletCollapse )
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Time:1:55 pm.
Mood: perplexed.
Ok, I have been tagged twice for the 6 weird things about you meme, and I promise I'm going to do it...I'm just having a hard time thinking of 6 weird things about me. As soon as I come up with 6, I'll update. But there is no way I'm going to be able to think of 12!
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Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006

Time:11:08 am.
Mood: mellow.
new tattooCollapse )
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Time:9:51 am.
Mood: blah.
Label it 21 Questions and spill your guts.

1. First thing you did this morning?
hit the snooze button

2. Last thing you ate?
Fat free fig newtons

3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?
no, I love my cell phone. It's tiny and cute.

4. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 months?
going to see Wicked in 2.5 weeks

5. What's annoying you right now?
my weird-ass funky mood :(

6. What's the last movie you saw?
Wedding Crashers

7. Do you believe in long distance relationships?
Not really.

8. When was the last time it rained?
Friday I think.

9. Is there someone you miss?

10. Who was the last person that texted you?
hmm...Cingular because they had to reset my password...lol

11. Whos the last person you hung out with?

12. Song that sums up your love life?
Sarah McLachlan - Fallen

13. What are a few things you wish you were better at?
Communication, making friends

14. If you could be anywhere this second, where would it be?
I don't know...I have been feeling the urge to go to the beach, just need to find someone to go with me.

15. What's your most vivid memory from 7th grade?
my friend Johanna having this icky girl named Carrie Dawn tell me that she didn't want to be friends with me anymore - but later that year we made up

16. Latest addiction?

17. Have you ever had the urge to kill someone?

18. How many people would you say are interested in you?

19. Do you have a bf/gf?

20. Whos the 4th missed call on your call list?
Mom cell

21. Who was the last person you saw or talked to?
Mr Mueller and Rhonda (work folks - employee and coworker)
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